Month 7 " Unexplained Infertility"

So that's it? NOTHING is wrong with either of us? Just bad luck?  They say really to wait a year before seeking help from a fertility doctor, so maybe we should just try on our own a bit longer? This is so annoying! I feel like if we keep doing what we have been doing then we will just keep getting the same result. =( I was really hoping they would say my hormones were off, or something small that they could fix, and then I would be pregnant a few weeks later. O well. Back to trying on our own for a few months... They told us we can do a Clomid/ Iui cycle if we want, but I was a bit scared to do that just yet if I didn't have to, so we are gonna try on our own for a while longer. =/

MONTH 7- HSG (HYSTROSALPINGOGRAM) experience & results

Ok I read up on this test before I went in and the reviews and experiences scared me to death! I saw some women passed out, some threw up, some said the pain can be really scary. What they do is put a catheter in through the cervix then once in the uterus a little balloon sneaks out of the tip and is blown up in your uterus. The balloon is a bit bigger than a quarter, but I hear it feels the size of a brick. Then they inject dye to see if your uterus fills up and the dye spills into the tubes and ovaries. You can see the process on the screen as they inject the dye.

So Brandon went with me in case I couldn't drive after, and for moral support of course. When it was my turn they tell me he can't some in due to the X-Ray machine =( GREAT!
The nurse was really sweet, and asked me if we were trying to get pregnant, and made small talk until the X-ray tech gets in. Wow he looks like he is 25 and for some reason he reminds me of a sleezy bar guy that creeps on women =/

                                          (Closest pic I could find to what he looked like)

 GREAT THIS GUY GETS TO DO THE SCARY TEST ON ME... I'm not feeling happy about this. So he gets me set up and takes a poke at the cervix and I scream OUCH!!! " Sorry your cervix is small just give me a second"  Ten minutes later and feeling like I just had 500 darts thrown at my cervix he says we are going to have to stop because its " Just too narrow" Omg! I have to have this test done!! Whats gonna happen? Is this why I'm not getting pregnant "Narrow cervix disease" Is that a thing? Lol! He tells me it happens sometimes and I'm just gonna have to reschedule and prior to trying this again I will have to first go to my fertility Dr and get dilated (preyed open) so it will fit.
I bled a little when I got home. Idiot guy I bet he didn't know what he was doing!

A few days later we are headed to try this again- So I go to my fertility Dr and ask him if my " Narrow cervix" is whats preventing me from getting pregnant. He said absolutely not you have a period blood comes out of it sperm are microscopic and can go through so don't worry...
 He attempts to dilate me and I scream BLOODY MURDER!!!! O HELLLLLLL NO!!! STOP-HAULT-NO- NO- NO!!!! He pulls away and asks if I need a valium. At that point I was crying and horrified. I felt so violated.. "What was that and why did it hurt so bad??" YES! I'VE NEVER DONE DRUGS BUT I'LL HIT THE CRACK PIPE RIGHT THIS SECOND IF IT GETS ME THROUGH THIS! Don't get me wrong I drink when I go out but always been scared of putting drugs into my body until that moment. So I took one ate some animal crackers and grape juice, and 20 minutes later I was on a cloud =) feeling so relaxed and cosy. Kind of like being drunk and happy but also numb everywhere. He dilated my cervix and I didn't even feel it! First he tried the really tiny catheter then the normal size that they would have at the X-Ray place. It went in! YAY! So I strolled out and Brandon drove me to the X-Ray place. A different older looking tech did the procedure thank god. I was really giggly and let them know I was feeling good and on Valium.  He put it in and I felt this numb painless pressure down there. I asked if it was in.. He said yes its blown up about to inject dye. I started crying and said "Omg thank god it went in im so happy!!" I was even happier that I was numb. He then told me to watch the screen, and as I did I saw the dye spill into the tubes then ovaries! All was good! I asked him if anything at all looks weird. He said " Well I see something in your left tube thats very tiny maybe a polyp, but the dye passed so it's not gonna cause a problem" Eww whats a polyp I thought.. O well whatever.. He said I'm good so I PASS YAY!!

Month 6 we get the results from the initial fertility testing

So my theory was WRONG Brandon's sperm count was at 125 MILLION!! It also had good motility and morphology. They say 20 million is good.. So yea he is a " Rock Star" as he called himself when he found out. All my blood work looked great also! I'm "A positive" blood type I have immunity to chicken pocks.. Estrogen/ progesterone look good my egg quality and count are good. So now it's time for the pelvic exam & ultrasound. Which also looks great we learn. Next up and last test the HSG..

Month 6 we meet with the fertility doctors for the first time

Prior to going to the actual office they had us each fill out a questionnaire online asking tons of personal questions. I thought wow they are really going to be investigating everything to find out whats wrong. How cool!
When we get to the doctors office, sign in and sit down I notice all most all the women in the room have nice wedding rings and designer bags ( including myself not gonna lie) I asked Brandon later if he noticed that , and why is it that women who want a baby , and are in the position to be able to provide a great life for one so often end up at the fertility doctor?! He then reminded me all kinds of women have fertility problems , but so many of them can't afford to come see a specialist so they just don't get help. O yea! I guess that makes sense! That's so sad though! =(

So we finally get called back, and Meet our two Doctors. They explain to us that we will be starting off with the initial round of testing including:
Semen analysis for Brandon
For me- pelvic exam, testing for estrogen levels, thyroid function, progesterone level, prolactin levels, androgen levels, and follicle stimulating hormone levels.  FSH (follicle stimulating hormone), TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) They also test blood type, immunity to diseases, and other random stuff I don't remember.. Also I would have to have a test called Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) to check and make sure my tubes were open.
Crazy!

So to recap... Checking to see if I have a good amount of eggs and see if they are good quality, see if I have a thyroid issue, if I ovulate, if my tubes are open, gonna look around in there to make sure everything looks ok with my ovaries, and uterus, make sure my hormones look good, if tubes are open and other random stuff.

YAY! I CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT THAT I'M GREAT AND WHAT WE CAN DO FOR BRANDON'S BAD SPERM. LOL!

Screw this we need to see a fertility doctor!!

Brandon, and I talked and decided we don't wanna wait  a year until we get checked to see if there is a problem. This is getting ridiculous already!  I assumed he had damaged his swimmers from using steroids back in college, and wanted to see what they could do about it if my theory was correct... I couldn't think of what else could be getting in the way. We are both healthy, never had std's, I have never had a surgery, he has never been injured in the privacy area. So I made us an appointment at the fertility center for the following week. LET'S DO THIS!!

Month 5 - Maybe trying with friends is not such a good idea

One of my best friends Julie had been married a little less than Brandon, and I to her husband who is Brandon's best friend since childhood. She had talked about trying soon, so I begged her to try with me this month. We went to stay the weekend with them, so I brought her an opk to pee on , and see if she was ovulating. From what it was looking like our cycles were just a couple days off. I got a positive opk on a Saturday and she got hers Monday I think it was might have been Sunday. I thought it was pretty cool we were only a day or 2 apart.. So we both covered our fertile window, and hoped for the best.. Two weekends later we had planned  a little mini get away. Us and the husbands  stayed at her grandpa's while he was out of town. I couldn't wait to see her and take test together. How cool would that be if we were both pregnant at the same time!
So on the drive there I stopped off at the gas station to pee, and realized I started my period  =( Booo!
The thought crossed my mind for the first time that what if she was pregnant, and I wasn't?? Yea I didn't think about that =/ but surely she couldn't be this was her first try..

So we get there settle in, and I remember telling her " Well the bad news is I started the good news is I can drink."  She had not tested yet so we went in the bathroom together, and she peed on the stick then said " Ohhh look its doing something!" She handed it to me and I watched the second line pop up. You have got to be kidding me!! All I could think was OMG THAT'S SO NOT FAIR she had only tried 1 month!! What did she do that I didn't that got her that positive? After about a minute of feeling sorry for myself secretly, I suddenly realized I was thinking selfish and needed to be excited for my friend. Because despite my personal sadness I really was so happy for her. We were both trying for the same thing, and its not her fault I wasn't pregnant. Next I thought O no Brandon is gonna be sad when he hears they are gonna have a baby, and we are not. I could see it in Brandon's eyes that he was disappointed in our situation when she showed her husband the test. Again you are happy for your friends, but there is still that jealous/ sad feeling of "why not me?"

Month 3 of trying Blue dye test BFP??

So I wanted My husband to get me First Response but he thought what the heck he would save probably a dollar or so and get me the generic store brand. This was the first time I had ever taken a blue dye test, and I never heard anything bad about them, so I was SOOO EXCITED when I saw this!

My husband thought it looked a lot lighter and wanted me to wait before we got excited, and go have a blood test in the morning. I thought how dare him ruin my moment! So I went the next morning and got a beta. He was right! Negative! I started my period a day later like clockwork was this a chemical? What happened??
                                                                                    I doubt a test could turn like that , and not be pregnant right?

So month 4 being the next cycle I took the other test in last months box and SAME THING!! So I went and got another box at the store. Had my husband pee on a test AND GUESS WHO ELSE IS PREGNANT!!
So I called and yelled at the company who makes the test. They sent me a couple digital tests in the mail. Yea whatever.. =( BOOO!!

Dear everyone I know,

Your pregnant and you were not even trying... Congratulations!

Lol! No but really this is how I feel when I keep hearing EVERYONE but me is getting pregnant.

Playing the Pee-Pee Lotto!!

Why spend a dollar on a lottery ticket when you can spend a dollar on a pregnancy test and have a chance at winning something much more valuable that money... Your very own baby!!!
 If you don't win the first time play, play AGAIN! That's my motto ; )
Below you will see what I use in 3 days (4 tests a day sometimes more. Then I compare them of course)

Lol! Watching the pee cross the test spot then the control is such an addiction for me once 6 days past ovulation hits. Hoping I had enough sex at the right time. Just praying my efforts are finally gonna pay off. Which unfortunately they have not been  : (  BOOO!!!! 

Trying to get pregnant the first few months

Well isn't this fun...I love my husband, and I love having sex with him but geeze this is starting to feel like more of a chore than what I use to know sex as. THIS IS NOT SEXY SEX!! =/

(My positive OPK- When the test line on the left is as dark or darker that control line on the right)

 " Hey honey, we have to go try to make the baby! My cervical mucus is like egg whites and the ovulation test shows positive! Come on lets just go real quick , and we can come back to watching our show right after"

So we have tried the every day, the every other day, and the every 2 days.
Pre-seed lubricant- To help the sperm swim easier
Soft cups- After he finishes you lay elevated and shove one of these things in to keep the sperm from coming back out. To me it felt like a stiff  live strong bracelet, or a spring that was gonna pop out. EWW! I could only keep them in about an hour.

Ovulation predictor kit ( opk's) - A test that detects lutenising hormone telling you that you'll ovulate in the next 24-48 hours.
Laying with my hips elevated for 30 minutes after sex-  Yes this is supposed to help the sperm get way in there I guess. lol. So I would just have my husband bring me my laptop, or phone and I would lay still until I just absolutely had to pee.