One of my best friends Julie had been married a little less than Brandon, and I to her husband who is Brandon's best friend since childhood. She had talked about trying soon, so I begged her to try with me this month. We went to stay the weekend with them, so I brought her an opk to pee on , and see if she was ovulating. From what it was looking like our cycles were just a couple days off. I got a positive opk on a Saturday and she got hers Monday I think it was might have been Sunday. I thought it was pretty cool we were only a day or 2 apart.. So we both covered our fertile window, and hoped for the best.. Two weekends later we had planned a little mini get away. Us and the husbands stayed at her grandpa's while he was out of town. I couldn't wait to see her and take test together. How cool would that be if we were both pregnant at the same time!
So on the drive there I stopped off at the gas station to pee, and realized I started my period =( Booo!
The thought crossed my mind for the first time that what if she was pregnant, and I wasn't?? Yea I didn't think about that =/ but surely she couldn't be this was her first try..
So we get there settle in, and I remember telling her " Well the bad news is I started the good news is I can drink." She had not tested yet so we went in the bathroom together, and she peed on the stick then said " Ohhh look its doing something!" She handed it to me and I watched the second line pop up. You have got to be kidding me!! All I could think was OMG THAT'S SO NOT FAIR she had only tried 1 month!! What did she do that I didn't that got her that positive? After about a minute of feeling sorry for myself secretly, I suddenly realized I was thinking selfish and needed to be excited for my friend. Because despite my personal sadness I really was so happy for her. We were both trying for the same thing, and its not her fault I wasn't pregnant. Next I thought O no Brandon is gonna be sad when he hears they are gonna have a baby, and we are not. I could see it in Brandon's eyes that he was disappointed in our situation when she showed her husband the test. Again you are happy for your friends, but there is still that jealous/ sad feeling of "why not me?"
--> Month 10 clomid/ iui cycle 
--> Month 11 found polyp in uterus where baby would implant--> Month 12 hystroscopy to remove it. Was told not to try for a month
--> Month 13 FINALLY 
oops was not supposed to try yet hcg dropped then rose again diagnosed Ectopic.Given methotrexate, Ectopic blocked the tube with scar tissue. Moving to IVF Dec-12
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